They read my words and tell me they mean nothing

I am wasted, I am insane

 I am bullshit, my experiences are lies

And I wonder why I ever tried to say anything

 

Then she comes to me near crying

Because she thinks the same things

And was so frightened when she heard me say them

Suddenly I am more frightened than she

 

Why do people think you have the answers

Simply because you know the questions better than they?

I was looking for someone to tell me

Not someone pleading to be told.

 

I do not scream to help others

I scream because I do not know how

And I will drown unless someone hears me

 

I don not scream to have others tell me

They share my pains

I scream because I want someone to tell me

Why we are lost this way and where the exit is

better haze

deep smoke falling down on us

so that all lying ahead is obscured

with a chin up we try to look above

see what is too far over us

we are digging our path through the grey

 

she looks over at me and I’m wondering

if it’s worth the pain to call out

or if I should let the time pass soundlessly

we are misting apart

 

if I am risen away

I think that we will never be clear to the other

but I feel it as it happens

the air blowing between to drift us further

 

the moon is what I can see

too high to touch but gleaming

a lune and rune I cast for the future

we cover it in zebra stripes of cloud

 

up here we don’t mind

if the sun doesn’t rise

it would show us what we should not see

destroy our mind and mystery with its heat